I'm going way out on a limb here, but it's never a mistake to reach out to others. Would you like to feel better about yourself this Christmas? Get on your knees, tell God you're sorry and you'll try harder, and then get up and hug somebody, if possible, someone who doesn't deserve a hug. See if that doesn't make you feel better. If you can't find anyone else, hug me. If you can't hug me, at least email me. I'd love to hear from ya.